Saturday, May 23, 2015
Friday, May 22, 2015
"They demand mercy but give none themselves. They demand warmth, forgiveness, and intimacy from those they have harmed with no empathy for the pain they have caused and no real intention of making amends or working hard to rebuild broken trust." Continue reading at Crosswalk.com.
Thursday, May 07, 2015
I believe an old memory can be triggered later in life no matter how hard an individual tries to forget or suppress it. Further, I believe it can cause problems in day to day life without the person realizing how much damage is actually being done to him/herself or those around him/her.
In researching memory, I came across “implicit memory” (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bSycdIx-C48&index=13&list=PL8dPuuaLjXtOPRKzVLY0JY-uHOH9KVU6) and a video about a man who, when faced with a joke box containing a fake mouse, became startled and had a flashback to a time when he was four years old. It was a traumatic experience because he had unknowingly eaten rat poison and had to have his stomach pumped. So, memories we feel have been forgotten can actually be brought back to life with great detail.
Implicit memories are “invisible and emotional” (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-hicJrLRjJM). A child who is given up for adoption may not have explicit memory of the event but the emotional memory, the implicit one, is there. Therefore, they may have a lifelong feeling of rejection. “Early experiences shape adult behavior.” (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JUFSVw0u2QI). Given this information, I believe my conclusion regarding adult behavior being linked to childhood memories is accurate, though it may not apply to everyone.
If an adult behaves poorly, or is detached from those around him/her, he/she might have an implicit memory to blame.
Monday, April 13, 2015
Sunday was especially discouraging for me. I thought I was doing a pretty good job, this past week, in the ministry in which I serve. I felt more confident than ever before…but after getting some feedback, it seems, perhaps I was not doing as well as I had perceived. Which leaves me pondering, if I feel I was performing up to par and really I was not and I could not tell the difference then perhaps I am really not cut out for that particular ministry. Or, maybe we just need more time together to get things fully ironed out. I do not know.
Yet God in His infinite wisdom and being able to see my thoughts and my heart, has redirected me to what is TRULY important, and on what my thinking and prayers should be, constantly.
As I was doing my university work and researching someone about which I had read, I found myself seeking John Piper’s input, as I generally do when I am confused about something faith based. On his site I came across a gem for me, today. It is “When Women Face Their Curse-Ravaged Homes”.
15 Yet she will be saved through childbearing—if they continue in faith and love and holiness, with self-control. (1 Timothy 2:15)Then suddenly, nothing else --- none of the swirling contemplation of the weekend, etc. --- seemed to matter.
Kim Ransleben wrote,
Our children are our first students, and the constancy of their need is our pervasive teacher. Their cries and wants bring to life the battle of dying to ourselves that another might live. As our children grow up, so do their mothers….
Not only does it sometimes feel like we are being pushed to the “lesser” work, with no voice in the church (much less the world), but being faithful mothers means that we must turn toward the area of our lives that is often the hardest for us to face. Come to find out, we’re right about how painful it is. The curse of Genesis 3 is felt not only in the breadth of the pain in childbearing, but in the depth of the risk known as mothering. From prolonged singleness to struggling marriages, infertility to unplanned pregnancy, the death of a child to the waywardness of our young adult children, women face one grief after the other….
When I read of the women who came before me, I learn that if I serve like Martha, kneel like Mary, acquiesce like our Lord’s mother, serve like Phoebe, and teach like Priscilla, then I can know that forever men will be taught by my life. I don’t need to take on their roles to be effective in Christ’s church. (By Kim Ransleben. ©2015 Desiring God Foundation. Website: desiringGod.org. http://www.desiringgod.org/articles/when-women-face-their-curse-ravaged-homes
The events of this weekend are fading away. The days are gone and I have children to teach about Jesus in the day to day.
16 To the woman he said,
“I will surely multiply your pain in childbearing;
in pain you shall bring forth children.
Your desire shall be for your husband,
and he shall rule over you.”
17 And to Adam he said,
“Because you have listened to the voice of your wife
and have eaten of the tree
of which I commanded you,
‘You shall not eat of it,’
cursed is the ground because of you;
in pain you shall eat of it all the days of your life;
18 thorns and thistles it shall bring forth for you;
and you shall eat the plants of the field.
19 By the sweat of your face
you shall eat bread,
till you return to the ground,
for out of it you were taken;
for you are dust,
and to dust you shall return.” (Genesis 3:16-19. ESV.)
Wednesday, April 08, 2015
It was not until I was about 30 years old (give or take a couple years) I realized God was never calling me to be a preacher/ teacher. He never goes against His own word (which clearly states women cannot be leaders over men).
12 I do not permit a woman to teach or to exercise authority over a man; rather, she is to remain quiet. 13 For Adam was formed first, then Eve; 14 and Adam was not deceived, but the woman was deceived and became a transgressor. 15 Yet she will be saved through childbearing—if they continue in faith and love and holiness, with self-control. (1 Timothy 2:12-15. ESV.)I am not offended…most likely because the Holy Spirit within me is not. If I was walking in the flesh (instead of the spirit) I, personally, would probably be highly insulted.
So, where does that leave me…a person, born female, who desires with all her heart to serve Her God (and Christ Jesus) in a profound way?
Well, as always, I have to look to the word of God. All of us, male or female, adult or child, regardless of nationality or race, etc. are called to proclaim His word.
18And Jesus came and said to them, “All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. 19Go therefore and make disciples ofall nations, baptizing them inthe name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, 20teaching them to observe all that I have commanded you. And behold, I am with you always, to the end of the age.” (Matthew 28:18-20. ESV.)
Further, I could possibly be a deacon because unlike elders, deacons do not have to be “able to teach” (1 Timothy 3:1-13, Titus 1:6-9)…but that might be a stretch. I can teach children and other women (Titus 2:3-5). According to 1 Corinthians 11:5 it looks as though I can pray publicly and prophesy. And, there does not appear to be a limit on spiritual gifts.
In answering the above question, “So where does that leave me?” Pastor John Piper offers the following:
My answer is: 75 percent of the seven billion people in the world—I just checked this to make sure this is a true statement—75 percent of the seven billion people in the world are women or [children] under the age of 15. They have limitless needs of every kind, right? Physical needs and education needs and spiritual needs and relational needs and parenting needs and needs for rescue and endless needs that they have. And my response is: Do anything you want. Care about them. Care about them physically and especially eternally and minister in whatever way you can. ( By John Piper. ©2015 Desiring God Foundation. Website: desiringGod.org. http://www.desiringgod.org/interviews/the-world-needs-women-ministers.)
Also, he wrote a book called What is the Difference? which has a section in the back with a list of 80 kinds of ministries that are open to women. I guess I will be checking that out to see if anything strikes a chord with me. For now, I will stick with wife & mother (of course), full time student working toward a law degree, part time substitute teacher, and blogger. Thank you, Lord.
Monday, April 06, 2015
33I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world.” (John 16:33. ESV.)And an eternity of no more death, suffering, or sadness.
22strengthening the souls of the disciples, encouraging them to continue in the faith, and saying that through many tribulations we must enter the kingdom of God. (Acts 14:22. ESV.)
4For everyone who has been born of God overcomes the world. And this is the victory that has overcome the world—our faith. 5Who is it that overcomes the world except the one who believes that Jesus is the Son of God? (1 John 5:4-5. ESV.)
4He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.” (Revelation 21:4. ESV.)
23And the city has no need of sun or moon to shine on it, for the glory of God gives it light, and its lamp is the Lamb. 24By its light will the nations walk, and the kings of the earth will bring their glory into it, 25and its gates will never be shut by day—and there will be no night there.26They will bring into it the glory and the honor of the nations. 27But nothing unclean will ever enter it, nor anyone who does what is detestable or false, but only those who are written in the Lamb’s book of life.
So, how must I continue day by day in the world but not of it?
2Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect. (Romans 12:2. ESV.)We were created to glorify God.
1 But now thus says the LORD, he who created you, O Jacob, he who formed you, O Israel: “Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name, you are mine. 2 When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you; when you walk through fire you shall not be burned, and the flame shall not consume you. 3 For I am the LORD your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior. I give Egypt as your ransom, Cush and Seba in exchange for you. 4 Because you are precious in my eyes, and honored, and I love you, I give men in return for you, peoples in exchange for your life. 5 Fear not, for I am with you; I will bring your offspring from the east, and from the west I will gather you. 6 I will say to the north, Give up, and to the south, Do not withhold; bring my sons from afar and my daughters from the end of the earth, 7 everyone who is called by my name, whom I created for my glory, whom I formed and made.” (Isaiah 43:1-7. ESV.)
Pastor John Piper states,
If there is a God, as I believe there is, and if he rules the world in his sovereignty, as the Bible says he does, and if he will bring human history to a close according to his plan and appoint to every person his eternal destiny, as Jesus taught that he will, then two of the most important questions for any human being to answer are these:
1) What is God's goal in creating and governing the world?
2) How can I bring my life into alignment with that goal?
For if we don't know his goal and our lives are not in alignment with it, then we will find ourselves at cross purposes with God and excluded from his kingdom in the age to come. It is a fearful thing to be at cross purposes with your maker! But on the other hand, nothing inspires courage and endurance and pluck for daily living like knowing the purpose of God and feeling yourself wholeheartedly in harmony with it. Nothing has nourished the strength of my Christian faith like knowing God's ultimate goal for creation and discovering how to bring my heart and my behavior into alignment with that goal. (By John Piper. ©2015 Desiring God Foundation. Website: desiringGod.org. http://www.desiringgod.org/sermons/god-created-us-for-his-glory
27Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid. (John 14:27. ESV.)
Saturday, March 28, 2015
While on an outing, I heard a teenage girl say to one of my children, "I hope you die." I told her, "Please don't say that." Another time I was supervising an "outdoor game time" at a day camp and I kept hearing the children say such horrible, ugly things to other kids...and an adult that was also present. I kept repeating, "We should be lifting each other up, not tearing each other down!" Not to mention, it really surprised me which kiddos were saying the hurtful, awful things! What are we as parents not teaching our children? Which parents would be mortified at some of the stuff their youngster says?
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29 Let no corrupting talk come out of your mouths, but only such as is good for building up, as fits the occasion, that it may give grace to those who hear.(Ephesians 4:29. ESV.)
Wednesday, March 25, 2015
God’s people had been praying earnestly for years to be free from the oppression of Pharaoh. Their lives were made “bitter” with “hard service” relentlessly “as slaves”. They called out, desperate for God to deliver them. When Moses saw how God’s people were being treated he killed an Egyptian task master, one day, who was beating someone. When Moses heard the Pharaoh intended to have him killed, Moses fled. God, in turn, heard the cries of His people and sent Moses back to rescue them.
22Then Moses turned to the LORD and said, “O Lord, why have you done evil to this people? Why did you ever send me? 23For since I came to Pharaoh to speak in your name, he has done evil to this people, and you have not delivered your people at all.” (ExodusMoses fought hard to free them (according to God’s instructions) then lead them out of Egypt while God went before them as a pillar of cloud by day and of fire by night.
And what if, after all of that, God’s people turned around and went right back to Pharaoh?
17When Pharaoh let the people go, God did not lead them by way of the land of the Philistines, although that was near. For God said, “Lest the people change their minds when they see war and return to Egypt.” 18But God led the people around by the way of the wilderness toward the Red Sea. And the people of Israel went up out of the land of Egypt equipped for battle. (Exodus 13:17-18. ESV.)It sounds to me, God knows us oh too well. I notice here, too, how God did not take Pharaoh out of the equation, rather He moved all of His people out of harm’s way.
Can the same be said for us, today? Does God hear our cries for deliverance? Many times I have heard, God wants us to “change our hearts” or “Until God removes that person from your life…” Did God want the Israelites to “change their hearts” toward Pharaoh? Perhaps it depends on the situation. If it is not one where there is an issue of safety, maybe then. And, what about the Holy Spirit? The Israelites did not have the Holy Spirit at that time, but we do today. Does the Holy Spirit “change our hearts” or alert us to sin? When Moses heard Pharaoh wanted to kill him should he have stuck around and “changed his heart” toward Pharaoh? What about when David was facing Goliath? How about when David was told Saul wanted to kill him?
The body of Christ is like iron sharpening iron. We may not always understand. We might not be able to relate. But people cannot do or handle somethings on their own. David had Johnathan and
the soul of Jonathan was knit to the soul of David, and Jonathan loved him as his own soul. (1 Samuel 18:1. ESV.)
Tuesday, March 24, 2015
The questions, maybe fear, and even a hopelessness sneak into our day to day, sometimes. Those on the outside, looking in, might find it easier to just walk away and say, “I tried. I did the best I could.” But then the one suffering is no closer to a resolution, no better off than before. He/she needs a support group…those he/she can lean on no matter how ugly it gets. (And, I have seen it get pretty horrid.) Taking a stance from a distance is understandable (especially when there is an issue of safety). No one wants to (or should be) in the direct path of a hurricane or destructive, fiery, all-consuming volcano! It takes courage, strength, wisdom, and most importantly the full armor of God!
10 Finally, be strong in the Lord and in the strength of his might. 11 Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the schemes of the devil. 12 For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places. 13 Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand firm. 14 Stand therefore, having fastened on the belt of truth, and having put on the breastplate of righteousness, 15 and, as shoes for your feet, having put on the readiness given by the gospel of peace.16 In all circumstances take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming darts of the evil one;17 and take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God, 18 praying at all times in the Spirit, with all prayer and supplication. To that end keep alert with all perseverance, making supplication for all the saints, (Ephesians 6:10-18. ESV.)
It will most likely take a lot of adjusting and earnest, fervent prayer for answers. It may take several years and a multitude of heartbreak. Don’t give up! Look to God, seek His grace, and ask that He will make Himself fully known by you. At times He says, “Be still and know that I am God.” (Psalm 46:10.) Other times a door closes…but another will open. We do not always get what we want. Like a child asking for the desire of his/her heart…a parent will not consistently say, “Yes”. The loving father/mother can see a bigger picture which the child does not fully comprehend. Trust in the Lord.
Together, they decided to seek answers. They had already hurt a handful of people who loved them most…a few they even lost. Doubt and nervousness were present. What if there is no solution. What if it was too much for them to bare? Had the burden become too heavy for each of them? Was change going to be the less uncomfortable of the two options? There is uneasiness in the unknown.
Tuesday, March 17, 2015
God does not allow evil and suffering to continue because He does not love us or is in some way detached and removed from us. God takes our suffering so seriously, that He took it upon himself on the cross. - Tim Keller
There is nothing - no circumstance, no trouble, no testing - that can ever touch me until, first of all, it has gone past God and past Christ right through to me. If it has come that far, it has come with a great purpose, which I may not understand at the moment. But as I refuse to become panicky, as I lift up my eyes to Him and accept it as coming from the throne of God for some great purpose of blessing to my own heart, no sorrow will ever disturb me, no trial will ever disarm me, no circumstance will cause me to fret - for I shall rest in the joy of what my Lord is! - That is the rest of victory! Alan Redpath
Christ did not come to explain human suffering or to eliminate it. Rather, He came to fill suffering with His presence. Paul Cladel
I do so hope and pray that God may give you grace to exercise a faith which will humble, comfort and cheer your inmost soul. But if you cannot so believe, at least lay your hands upon your bleeding and darkened spirit, and drag it along the way of duty. Follow the Master's will, in comfort if you can, but follow it. He will bring you out into a pleasant place in His own time. - Bruce, a note to a father who lost his third son to illness
Only we who have been washed in the blood of the Lamb can both weep and laugh at the same time, and with hearts that are breaking in pieces scattered all over the floor say with sincerity and honesty that it is well with my soul.
- Gary J Oliver, who lost both his wife and his adult son within two months
through many tribulations we must enter the kingdom of God. (Acts 14:22. ESV.)
3 Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, 4who comforts us in all our affliction, so that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God. (2 Corinthians 1:3-4. ESV.)
2Bear one another’s burdens, and so fulfill the law of Christ. (Galatians 6:2. ESV.)
3 He was despised and rejected by men;
a man of sorrows, and acquainted with grief;
(Isaiah 53:3. ESV.)